I was cleaning
putting my things away
and then something pink
caught my eye
it was a ribbon
from that wench
amoungst my personal belongings
somehow it made it from it’s dark
hiding place, the one he keeps so well
into my drawers
and it stung
like I just had my heart re-broken
like a mirror smashed for the bad luck
I threw it away
but it still taunts me
her scent still lingers
as if she was here
all along
trying to claim a territory
that was not and never would be hers
Always it seems
that you have held out
your hand
even when I begin to fall
it’s like you catch me
in no time at all
and your smile
always patches up the tears
you are like that sewing machine
that is just always there
but yet so much more
you are the smile I hold
and the courage I have found
you have always been my best friend
and I know not how to thank you
because I want you to be
so much more than that
I want to be that heart you hold
Driving to your place
finding your home
seeing the lights on
I scurry to your door
When it is opened your friends
greet me with a warm welcome
I almost called this home
but if those words slipped
through my mouth
I would probably cause a scene
but your house
is where I feel most at home
and I don’t know why
I was dragged to see the new movie New Moon, you know with the sparkly vampires, and it hit me, no wonder girls are falling for bad boys. Between mothers trying to make their daughter feel better because a boy has decided that she is his next target to hollywood and romance writers romancing what was once disdainful and outright wicked. Us girls are now programed to think that because a boy is dark and mysterious he is attractive, but what is so attractive about a human looking half-dead? It’s that whole “he’s only mean to you because he likes you” thing. So, now it’s true, all girls fall for at least one bad boy.
From aliens, like ET, vampires, like Mr. Edward to things like werewolves and zombies, pirates and tyrants hollywood and us damn writers are taking the edge off of the scare. Who the hell would be scared of a twinkling vampire? Likewise, with the famous Jack Sparrow, Disney was able to charm his way into young ladies (including mine) hearts with his attractive looks and witty comic. Did we forget what real pirates did? They raped and killed and didn’t give a hoot what happened as long as they got their beloved booty. And what is with this whole friendly alien thing? I thought they were supposed to be scarey, not cute, and sure as hell not as emotional as we are. Then we get to zombies, which still are on the more brutal side but if I can handle a zombie movie, hollywood is definately not doing something right. Where is the loads of gore and guts? I may even end up falling for a zombie if this keeps up! But, this mysterious phenomenon of the Cullen clan… you know, when vampires first entered the literary world they were feared, loathed and did not only seduce but kill their prey. That’s all young women were to them, not a pet, and definately not a lover. They didn’t sparkle, they didn’t look too appealing and they were not “vegetarian”, seriously, get real. But, if you like the danger and the scrawney half-dead looking emo kid, then have fun but I would rather be around someone who didn’t want to kill me. Anyways, what ever happened to Dean from Gilmore Girls? We need men like that in our minds.
However, back to the real world, there are still problems, mothers telling their daughter a boy likes them is not going to help them. When they grow up they think “hey this guy is a dick, he must like me and if I like him then maybe he would be nice to me”. And when they hook up, they think “oh, it will get better when I…” and you can fill that blank for almost anything. So, if you constantly tell your daughter a boy likes her because he is mean, don’t go crying to your friends when she finds a punk in high school that is a complete ass hole. I’m not saying that it is all your fault, but think about what you say to your child, it actually lasts. Us girls are being taught that it is okay to be hurt, to be scared, and to be treated poorly. I think we should put a stop to this.
But hey, this is just my humble opinion, I would prefer if women weren’t falling for bad boys (and notice how I have hardly used to term “men”). Because if a guy acts like they do in the movies, he is no man at all anymore, just a romanced demon.
A voice came from the speaker
as I was grading papers
it declared the school was
under a lock down- the red alert one
I remember my first reaction
was something about
keeping my baby safe
it was the first time I
ever used those words
and I knew
I was going to be a mother
Slip away with me unseen
into the abyss
of what we can be
explore with me the ravines
and climb the vines
that twist in our minds
let’s elope our hearts
and devour our desire
we can stop pleading for love
and enjoy the fire
of the twilight hours
with our hands united
i cant wait
until your sweet musty scent
lingers in my nose again
i need to see your forehead
crinkle in thought
i long to have your voice
echo throughout my mind
i miss you
and everything you are
I wanted to hear sweet words
slip between your teeth
while your eyes would
convey this mixed message
of a sick love you have for me
however i need to hear
sticky little post-it
rhymes
to slither into your vocabulary
just so that I can get my fill
of those corny cliches
i love so dearly
i still cry over him
i still wish i had that perfect relationship
i still miss someone to at least hold me
i miss being able to be kissed without regret
You and I
we were on a quest
maybe it was just to survive
this little thing called life
but then
when you grabbed my hand
the world spun and yet stopped
and the backround became a
golden blur
it was just us
in our tiny vortex of clarity
just us
simply smiling
and after that
things made a little more sense
as we continued our jounrey
hand in hand
